Flake by Jack Johnson
I know she said it's alright
But you can make it up next time
I know she knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying
Maybe she thinks I know something
Maybe maybe she thinks its fine
Maybe she knows something I don't
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down

I know she loves the sunrise
No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes
And I know that when she said she's gonna try
Well it might not work because of other ties and
I know she usually has some other ties
And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em
Maybe she'll help me to untie this but
Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie too

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down
It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go

The harder that you try baby, the further you'll fall
Even with all the money in the whole wide world
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me by

Everything you know about me now baby you gonna have to change
You gonna have to call it by a brand new name
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Just like a tree down by the water baby I shall not move
Even after all the silly things you do
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

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[Warrrrrgghhh! * yawning, arms out stretched, rib cage expanding, leaning on the chair....almost tippling over*]
What am I doing here? Yes, yeah.. I was gonna quit blogging.
I have too many other things to do, not even enough time to eat or sleep.
Tell me again, why am I going through all this?? Never mind, one more year and it'll all be over soon..

Been spending all day completing assignments and studying. Starting to get really tired right now. For some reason, I just finished a lab report that's due two weeks from now.. feels like a miracle. This is so unlike me, I usually would've done things in the last minute based on my procastinating genes. I actually shocked myself, must be some external force.
Well it is.. my dad just gave me a "wake up call" yesterday. Talked about how I should be getting straight A's like I used to back in MRSM years ago. I kept telling him that it's not as easy as it used to be before but I guess there's no taking it easy with him. That's what you get for having a father who's profession is the same as those professor's I see everyday. But then again, the cool thing is that I could talk to him about engineering terms and principles which would make my brother envy of me. But who am I kidding, how often would I talk about fugacities, thermodynamics, transport processes or heat blanaces in crystallization or something like that.
Anyway, talking about brothers [I only have one actually, should have used 'brother' then], my brother Amir just turned 24 yesterday. Said he's too old to get gifts, so I gave him money instead, some American greenies, in a card with the picture of some little swiss yodellies picking their noses. Inside there's a message, "picked this especially for your birthday!" So I though I'd just add to the irony by sending him some crispy greenies, but instead of posting some useless organic boogies, I sent him some very useful money.Said he'd put it in a frame, so that he could break the glass for use in emergencies. Cool!
Adrin's coming over next weekend, maybe that's another reason that I wanna get everything done. Can't believe it's been two years since he first 'spotted' me during Midwest Games 2000. He's been calling me frequently in the past month since he's been in Texas for his job training with Exxon-Mobil as a drilling engineer. So we've been catching up to things, and we get along pretty good. I do like him, but emotionally I'm not attached and I don't want to be too. Just because it'll be a long distance thing and I have no faith in that. He admits that he likes me and keeps talking about what it would've been like if we had met two years ago. Well maybe things would've been different I admit, cause honestly, I feel that I am not the same person as I was 2 years ago. Things have changed, I have changed. I no longer have the needs I used to, I no longer trust people as I used to, but I'm open to new things in a way that I wasn't before.. so it's hard to say, I'm sure I would've looked at him in a different way 2 years ago, and that would've greatly affect how I would feel for him then..No regrets,baby..So..c'est la vie! He tells me that he heard people from his batch telling him that Haz is the hottest thing in his batch right now, which according to him, is really hard to believe cause the last time he saw her, she was wearing braces and stuff.. and that was 5 years ago!! People change definitely, my ex-roommate is following Haz's foot steps [in a way or two], who knows maybe 5 years from now she'll be the hottest thing in our batch... YOU NEVER KNOW!
So anyway, yeah.. Adrin's coming over to visit. That's something to look forward to...