My Kind Of Girlby Brian McKnight ft. N'SYNC

When I was younger never went to far
Held my feelings and never even wanted to start
so when i met you, I didnt know
what you were gonna do with my heart

When you talk (I cling on every word you say)
when you move (Just like a breeze on a summer day)
when you smile (the sky turns from grey to blue, thats what you do)
And your the kind of girl I think of
and your the kind of girl I dream about
my heart is telling me that I need you in my world (in my world)
cause you're my kind of lady (you're my kind of girl)

When I'm not with you, where ever you are
baby I'm counting the moments till I'm back in your arms
all I want is to have you here with me
every night and every day,

when you talk (I cling on every word you say)
when you move (Just like a breeze on a summer day)
when you smile (the sky turns from grey to blue, thats what you do)
And your the kind of girl I think of
and your the kind of girl I dream about
my heart is telling me that I need you in my world (in my world)
cause you're my kind of lady (you're my kind of girl)

Baby girl I need you here by my side
and if your there everything will be alright
cause this is the time for us, baby be mine

And your the kind of girl I think of
and your the kind of girl I dream about
my heart is telling me that I need you in my world (in my world)
cause you my kind of lady (your my kind of girl)

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Last week I met Laila at work and she asked me if I wanted to come to the Chemistry party on TUesday, I thought it was informal and initially planned to skip it cause I have lab on Tuesday evenings until around 6pm, but today at work I found out that Prof. Buhlmann (Phil) had sent me a personal email inviting me to come.

Hi Noris,

Tomorrow is the open house during which our group presents itself to the new first year graduate students. Please join us; your attendance is important.

I will present in the 15 min a brief overview of what everybody in the group is doing and would like to introduce you, which is evidently not possible if you do not attend.

Tuesday, 9/30 4:30 - 5:15 - Presentation 4:45 - 5:00 - 221 Smith Hall

Food and drinks provided.

If you like, please join us afterwards for free dinner.

Phil
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Suddenly I felt like an important person, Phil seems to make it seem like he really wanted me to stay and work with him in this research. Today, while I was checking the result of my experiment from last Saturday he kept asking me if I'm going to make it to tomorrow's meeting. What seems to be even more weird is the fact that I am starting to receive emails which belongs to the Department of Analytical Chemistry faculty and staff mailing list. Now, in these times of unfamiliar open ended future, I really wish I could stay after this year. Everywhere I go everyone is asking me about what I'm doing next year.. Argghhh..

The more I think about it, I do want to move on but the scary part is actually moving on..
I can feel the clock ticking..
3 months, and counting down..
that's less than 100 days to go before I'll be released into the REAL world..

Anyway, while I was waiting for my TLC analysis to complete, I surfed on the web in the lab. I went to a blogspot which I haven't been to in a really long time, and to my surprise I saw a picture on me taken over two years ago and a detailed description of the accounts of an outing which I had participated in, about 27 months prior to today, with the author of the online journal. I'm not certain if he was talking about me, though the events described seems vaguely familiar to the events of that particular day. However, looking back.. if he was refering to me, I would think that his present view about the outing is partly fictional based on his somewhat 'shy' approach of describing the trip to the mall on his entry over 2 years ago titled The Dragon Lady and the world after the Mall Incident and dated (5/23/2001).. All in all, his main purpose is [probably] purely entertainment.. but I'm starting to wonder, am I "a funny girl or a fun girl?"

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

Here I am again, I survived the cold, nasty wind and made it safely to the review session and now I'm back home. I actually feel that the review session was good as it not only prepared me with useful tips of what's gonna be included in the exam but also it gave me additional motivation to continue studying in a competitive way. I'm probably going to be stucking my head in books this weekend anyway cause there's gonna be 3 midterms next week.. so I might as well start now.

Although, Rafique had earlier corrected me this morning that today is actually not Thursday, I still feel that today is Thursday and not Wednesday. It's not that there's a different feeling to each day.. it's just that people are beginning to talk about the weekend (Kritin's weekend get-away with Treston, Friday night's shift at the gym, Zulfaa bye-bye thing on Saturday eve, dance practice) and I have a feeling at the back of my mind that tomorrow is Friday. I think I've gone through a lot these past two days and I am craving for the weekend.

Anyway, I've set the timer for 10 minutes at the oven cause I'm having pizza tonight for dinner, and time's almost up. I better get going.. time's precious!


I'm going to leave you all with something interesting that I got from someone a minute ago..

Something interesting about English language

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at an enligsh uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht frist and lsat ltteer is at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a toatl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae we do not raed ervey lteter by it slef but the wrod as a wlohe.

Note to myself: get your gloves out for tomorrow.

Again love i swear i'm through
But if only you knew
How many times i've said those words
And fall again will i ever learn
Knowing the tears i've cried
This lovely black butterfly
Must take a chance and spread my wings
Love can make you do some crazy things

How did you get here
Nobody's supposed to be here
I've tried that love thing for the last time
My heart says no, no!
Nobody's supposed to be here
But you came along and changed my mind
~Nobody's Supposed To Be Here by Deborah Cox

I have a review session for one of my midterms next week in about 25 minutes, and since I'm still at home I won't take too long right now. It feels so lazy to get out of the house this evening, especially since I know that it's getting colder outside. For the first time this semester, I saw people wearing gloves today.. but I must go, what else would I do otherwise?

Later alligator..

It's not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me, oh no
It's just the nearness of you

It isn't your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation, oh no
It's just the nearness of you
~"THE NEARNESS OF YOU" BY Norah Jones

It's been a crazy day and the night is not over yet.. I feel like I have a million things to do, this preliminary lab report is not done yet, I've been spending too much time revising and rewriting my lab notebook. I was hoping that this sem would be easy, but it guess there's the peak to everything, and I feel like I need to go the distance tonight just to catch up with things. Phil (research Professor, .. yeah we're on first name basis nowadays) will be back from his conference tomorrow and I promised him that I'd stop by to discuss my future plans in terms of the progress of this 'perfluoroalkane ionic sensing membrane' research that I'm working on right now. There's a new boy called Peter also working on this research right now, cause Doug is no longer continuing with us. To add to all that, I also have 2 chapters to read for my mythology class.. and I'll have a quiz on that at noon too..

I had a good head start this morning, I woke up at 4 and somehow right after I took my shower I felt really hyper, which is really weird considering how early it is and that i didn't consume any caffeine [or anything at all for that matter]. I felt like going for a run but it was way too early so I popped in Kristi, one of my blond-all-American-housemate's, 20 minute workout tape and started moving about [frantically].. when that was done, I freshened up and it wasn't even subuh yet.. so I called my mum and talked to her for an hour or so..

Aisyah will be having her PMR on the 6th of October, she's pretty calm about the whole thing... She even said that she's ready, but I told her to keep flipping those notes, just in case. She could most likely out-score my past result [she should, considering she had 3 years to get ready for it while I crammed all that into one year..] To motivate her further I promised to buy her a new PS2 if she gets all A's. I talked with mum about Tok, Abah, Abang, Nora and Husna. Told her about our planned class reunion,.. she suggested that we plan it properly in advance and then she could reserve a chalet for us at Port Dickson, or something, using our TANCO points. I told my classmates, they got all excited [except for the one stuck in Japan and wouldn't be back until March]..

my mum was reminding me to make sure I have qada' all my fasting days.. which I have already done earlier, but I told her that I might start fasting again soon cause it's Rejab right now and fasting during the 3 months before Syawal is encouraged, then I told her about a boy who almost fasts everyday here in Minnesota. I was so amazed when he told me that he had been fasting so regularly, even my mum was astounded.. somehow I couln't elp feeling a little guilty that I haven't already done that and that this young boy is setting an example to someone older like me... it's kind of given me something to think about... I want to try to do that too...I should do that..

Then right after I finished talking to mum, I got a surprise long distance call from that certain someone.. he wasn't suppose to call me cause we had already talked and discussed our priorities the night before.. but the call had made my day none the less.. and so I smiled all the way to work :)

If I'm smart then I'll run away
But I'm not so I guess I'll stay
Heaven forbid
I'll take my chance on a beautiful stranger
~"Beautiful stranger... " by Madonna


It seems that recently, I'm always starting out my blog by saying how I've wanted to write an entry but just kept putting it off.. well here's another entry just like that.. so many things have happened, but at the same time so many distractions keeping me away from pouring my heart out on this thing..

As you might have noticed, I don't usually write about my personal events relating to my emotions and love life, and I'm not going to take this opportunity to start going into details.. but those dear to me would know that something crazy is going on and though everything on the surface everything seems calm and cool, I'm just trying my best to be just that. To stop myself from thinking to much of it I'm just drowning myself in my studies and just hanging out with my friends.. It's too new to tell and i'm just gonna stop there (to stop myself from thinking about it furthermore)

Anyway, it's Sunday.. and surprisingly I'm at work!! once again filling in on somebody else's shift. Last week Colin, new guy from work, went home to see his grandparents and when he came back he gave a bunch of us a jar of honey(they had a bee hive and he went there to help his grand dad extract the honey), so now every morning I'm starting my day with a toast and honey, which is soo delicious.. anyway, this week he's going out of town and he called me to ask me to fill in for him.. and since I haven't really continued my research job yet.. I have some extra hours on my time card so I agreed with him.. however, I only realized later on that I'd be missing the Emmy Awards tonight if I took the night shift, so I swapped shift with Chad (who is currently on probation for 3 months 'cause he turn up to work intoxicated last weekend).. so here I am.. gonna be staying here til 5pm, and so I've brought sufficient reading materials which I really hope to complete 'cause next week I'm gonna start having midterms, and there's a draft lab report due on tuesday.

A big shoutout goes to the hosts of yesterday's BBQ.. THANKS for the great time. Right after the the bbq, I went to my joget dance practice.. we were starting to choreograph the moves for the cultural performance that MAPHILINDOS (Malaysian, Philipines, Indonesians & Singaporeans Association) is hosting this November.. This time, our dance will include both girls and boys and I have a feeling that if everyone is committed to it, we will have a really fun time doing.. every Saturday we'll be practising this dance until everything is going smoothly. Other dances will include a Lilin Dance, Iban Dance and also Dikir Barat..

The weather outside is getting a little frisky and I'm starting to get the winter coats out.. The Hurricane Isabel in the east coast had got me all worried, especially cause Jin is in North Carolina right now. Fortunately, I had a chance to contact him a day right after the hurricane and he told me that he is safe and that everything is ok for him. We're so happy to hear from each other again. He might be coming back to Minneapolis to study a little bit more or something like that. I'm not so surprise cause his fiance is still here. On the other hand, Fajarrani is still in town fanatically searching for a job. Dominique is also on campus starting her PhD in some biochem stuff.

Back home, my ex-classmates from MRSM and I are all planning to have a reunion as soon as I'm back home. I told them that maybe we could all have a reunion on my birthday and then the girls could stay over for a slumber party. BUt then the boys says that they don't wanna be left out so they planned that we meet at my house then go to Genting Highlands together for the weekend or something.. Kord has been trying to get everyone together for the past 3 months and right now we have 3/4 of the class corresponding together everyday though email just catching up on past events from since the last time we all met, which was graduation night half a decade ago. As expected some have already got a job, one got married and had a child, most have their special someone, some is still searching, some went to grad school etc.. Basically we're just helping each other trying to get a job and just talking about future plans..

Anyway, I'll stop for now.. there's so much to do and I have so little time

Pink, it´s my new obsession
Pink, it´s not even a question
Pink on the lips of your lover, ´cause
Pink is the love you discover

Pink as the bing on your cherry
Pink ´cause you are so very
Pink it´s the color of passion
`Cause today it just goes with the fashion

Pink, it was love at first sight, yea
You go pink when I turn out the light, and
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight

You could be my flamingo
´Coz pink is the new kinda lingo
Pink like a deco umbrella
It´s kink - but you don´t ever tell her

Pink it was love at first sight
You turn pink when I turn out the light
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight

I want to be your lover
I wanna wrap you in rubber
As pink as the sheets that we lay on
Pink is my favorite crayon, yeah

Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink it´s like red but not quite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight
~Pink by Aerosmith

A new semester has began and I'm just starting to have a feel of how things are gonna be working out for my very last term here. Gonna have to start to pack all this laziness away and start again. Ever since I moved to this new apartment I feel quite lazy cause it hasn't quite sink in yet that I have to start studying.. but I guess I can't put it off any longer.

I'm at work today at the gym just filling in for someone cause my research work with Prof. Buhlmann hasn't officially started again yet. I'm not planning to work here at the gym so much anymore cause I want to spend more time with my research experimentations. Now where is the real office key, all I have right now is the spare key from the equipment room, though I don't really wanna be responsible if a tonne of cash is missing from the safe cause someone has the other key out there, but I'm sure it'll be safe tonight.. the alarm will sound as soon as someone walks in anyway.

I bought a webcam yesterday cause my baby sister kept telling how much she misses me, plus my brother has already subscribed to broadband connection at home and my dad has a webcam so it'll be nice if we could both talk face to face and I don't have to pay for phone cards anymore. In addition to that I can now see my other frinds from all over the world, cool ain't it? (ok, that's kinda lame considering that almost everyone already has a webcam years before me and I've just discovered the bliss of modern teleconferencing but who cares)

I've choosen the song above to me my song of the moment today (cause it was the song that I kept repeating this morning). Actually I want to introduce y'all to my friend, Darren's, new band Avenpitch.. you can download songs from the website and listen to it. Recently, the Minnesota Daily posted a little clipping about the flurishing new band.. I wish you all the best Darren with your band.. and for you girls out there, Darren is still single.. (hehhe... why do I feel like I'm writing someone's friendster testemonial.)

Talking about friendster, I think that I'm meeting alot of my old friends through this thing.. it's kinda interesting too cause I get to catch up on what's happening. Mostly my friends have finished their studies and are moving towards higher education or the career life. It was weird calling my friends Dr. Liana or Dr. Norina cause they just graduated from their medic college. Just last week, Molly (my new housemate)'s mum was asking me what I'll be when I'm done. It felt kind of odd to say that I'll be an engineer when I'm done. "Yeah, next year I'll be an engineer", felt like it was just yesterday that I took that millenium flight to America, 12 time-zones away. I wanna stay.. but it's just as hard getting a job here.(This morning I was chatting with Fajarrani, she's still job hunting now 3 months after graduation.)