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A message to myself..that's exactly what this is.. My own little niche in life..

Monday, March 31, 2003

SMOKEY ROBINSON ~ Cruisin'

Baby let's cruise, away from here
Don't be confused, the way is clear
& if you want it you got it forever
This is not a one night stand, baby, yeah so

Let the music take your mind, ooh
Just release & you will find
You're gonna fly away
Glad you're goin' my way
I love it when we're cruisin' together
The music is played for love,
Cruisin' is made for love
I love it when we're cruisin' together

Baby tonight belongs to us
Everything's right, do what you must
& inch by inch we get closer & closer
To every little part of each other ooh baby, yeah So

Let the music take your mind
Just release & you will find
You're gonna fly away
Glad you're going my way
I love it when we're cruisin' together
The music is played for love,
Cruisin' is made for love
I love it when we're cruisin' together

Cruise with me baby
Cruise

Baby let's cruise
Let's flow, let's glide
Ooooh let's open up, & go inside
& if you want it you got it forever
I can just stay there inside you
& love you baby,

Let the music, take your mind
Just release & you will find
You're gonna fly (away)
Yeah, I'm glad you're going my way
I love it, when we're cruisin together
The music is played for love,
Cruisin' is made for (love)
I love it, I love it, I love it
You're gonna fly away
Yeah, glad you're going my way
I love it when we're cruisin' together
(The music is played for love)
It's love music
(Cruisin' is made for love)


CALIFORNIA LURVE

For every road trip there's always a roadtrip song.. usually it's the song that you'd repeat over and over again through the long drives.. sometimes it's just the song everyone sings together that gives it that special 'umph'.. It's been a week but I can still feel the lingering California lurve... I was finishing off my homework a minute ago and I heard this song and was automatically reminded of the feeling I had the last time I heard this song.. in our silver Ford van on our way back from the Golden Gate bridge, and we (me and Nini) started singing this oldies tune...

Click here and see as these picture shows the anti-war protest continues globally...

Sunday, March 30, 2003

Angela's gone for the weekend, so it's just me and Anthony [our pet fish] in the apartment... not doing much today, just the usual weeked stuff; laundry, sweeping off dust and hairballs off the floor, chit-chat with the girls etc.. catching up on studies, and current local (US regional) and global (home) affairs..

Still need to complete my Chaotic Behavious of Ordinary D.E assignment, but I stopped to read some 'food for the soul' and I came upon some very interesting articles that I'd like to share;
In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

Submission (Islam) & The Concept of Friendship,
Choosing Your Friends



Humans are social creatures by their nature and in need of friends and companions. Much of our lives is spent in interaction with others. For us, Submitters (Muslims in Arabic), who are living in a society where we are clearly a minority, the issue of choosing the right companions is essential for preserving our religion and maintaining our righteousness.
Befriending the right people is an essential mean for staying on the Straight Path. In choosing our friends we should be looking for friends who believe in God and His scriptures. Living in a society where Submitters (Muslims) are a minority is a challenge by itself that is rewarded by God fully. In such a society, finding the righteous friend may not be easy at the beginning but insisting on them and looking for them is a sign to God that you are sincere in your search and He will direct you in the right path.

Since we cannot always find other Submitters (Muslims) near us, God permitted us in the Quran to befriend other people from other religions as long as they do not mock God or our religion. If you have school mates or neighbors who are not Submitters (Muslims) whom you like, who behave righteously as far as their religion command them and who do respect your beliefs and religion, you can have them as friends. Those who do not respect your beliefs, and mock your religion or God do not deserve you and you should not keep them any more. If you choose to befriend non-Submitters, remember that you cannot compromise any aspect of your religion just to please your friends. Always remember that we are here in this life to please God first. Also remember that some of those who are born in a Submitters (Muslim) family and call themselves Submitters (Muslims) while in reality have not got a grip on their religion, may be as bad friends as non-submitters who mock your religion. Beware, only befriend those who believe God and respect His commandments, do not think because a person call him/herself a Submitter (a Muslim) , guarantees that he/she will be a good friend.

A good friend will always remind you of God, remind you of performing your Salat (Contact prayers), support you when you fast, remind or encourage you to pay Zakat (obligatory charity) and do righteous work and behave respectfully in your community as God told us in the Quran. Having bad friends is the same like having the Devil as your guidance. The bases for the actions of those who follow the evil ways are corrupt; their actions are built upon misguidance and deviation. Their deeds are worthless to them as God said:

[25:23] "We will look at all the works they have done, and render them null and void. "

Friends are those who feel for their companions, in both happy and sad moments. If we share our feelings with the wrong- doers whose actions are worthless and based on corruption, then we are following the same ways and standards as they are. Affection which results from that friendship leads to love and closeness to other than the righteous believers, and this may even lead to avoiding those who are on the Straight Path. Mixing with the wrong friends also results in a change in one's behaviour, morals and conduct. If we agree, follow and are pleased with such friends, then we inherit their habits, behaviours and even the wrong practices of their religion. Such a person would find him/herself in a situation wherein he/she is willing to hide his/her correct beliefs in front of those who despise it and to separate from the true believers. When this situation occurs, a point is reached when there is a very slight difference between the Submitter (Muslim) and his wrong-doing companion. Such a companionship is the root of sickness of one's heart and loss of one's religion.

Instead of making friends with the misguided ones we should befriend the righteous of among all God's religions, and treat the rest in a gracious and just manner. Staying on a sufficient distance is necessary, yet treating everybody in a noble and kind manner is required.

God, the Most Merciful says in the Qur'an:
"The day will come when the transgressor will bite his hands (in anguish) and say, "Alas, I wish I had followed the path with the messenger. "Alas, woe to me, I wish I did not take that person as a friend. "He has led me away from the message after it came to me. Indeed, the devil lets down his human victims."[25:27-29] . This shows, how important is choosing our friends. So take heed before the inevitable Day comes and we are reckoned for our acts.

God, the Most-Wise also says:

"The close friends on that day will become enemies of one another, except for the righteous." [43:67].

A reminder that bad friends in this life will be the worst enemies, blaming each other for getting into the eternal Hell.. This lesson is for us to know and take heed.

It is through the good company that God, the Most Merciful, saves those who are astray and guides the wicked. The benefit of mixing with the righteous is immense, and it will, God willing, be even more obvious to us in the Hereafter.

"O you who believe, you should worry only about your own necks. If the others go astray, they cannot hurt you, as long as you are guided. To GOD is your ultimate destiny, all of you, then He will inform you of everything you had done." [5:105]

We pray to God to make us of the righteous ones and give us companions who will be with us when we walk away from His Wrath and lead us to His Pleasure and Paradise.

Saturday, March 29, 2003

START THE COMMOTION

As promised, here is todays compilation of more anti-war protesters around the globe..Click here to see more..
It's unbelievable how people are so against this war and yet our elected representatives are saying otherwise.

Feeling a little better right now, I went to class this afternoon and got my Environmental Science midterm paper back.. good news, I scored highest score in the class.. this is definitely a confidence boost to make me work just as hard for the other classes. Maybe I should've been in an environmental engineer major...

Anyway as it is a Friday, I have written another article relating to the demand of oil and natural gas as to whether the Arctic National Wildlife Reserves should be open to oil drilling considering the Americans are currently in conflict with the middle eastern oil supplier nations.

SHOULD THE ARCTIC NATIONAL WILDLIFE REFUGE BE OPENED FOR OIL DRILLING?

With the current fluctuations in oil prices, the present high price of natural gas and an energy crisis in the West, the time is long overdue for a comprehensive energy plan. Dwight R. Lee, a Professor of economics argued that the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge oil would bring a great benefit to the society. On the other hand, Amory B. Lovins and L. Hunter Lovins emphasizes that obtaining the oil is too expensive, it is too limited in quantity to relieve energy needs for long, and that its delivery system is inclined to interference. There is a continuous pressure to expand commercial use of national forests and parks, as well as opening wilderness areas to exploitation. Thus, the debates over protecting wilderness areas are commonly focused on economic arguments. However, considering the negative impact on the environment, the short-sighted and inefficient drilling product and the safety considerations, drilling for oil in the Artic National Wildlife Reserve does not pose as a logically solution to America’s fuel and energy problems.

Opening in the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge (ANWR) to oil drilling is environmentally damaging and would not eliminate the concerns relating to the high price of crude oil or the unstable Western energy market. ANWR is a small part of Alaska's pristine Arctic tundra on the North Slope which has been set aside as a wildlife refuge. The remaining land on the North Slope is open to the crude oil industry for unlimited drilling. Thus it is unreasonable to exploit this small area which is meant to be reserved. It must be clear that drilling in the wildlife refuge is not a responsible course for this nation. The environmental risks of drilling in this nearly 19.6 million acres of pristine wilderness on the North Slope of Alaska refuge are extraordinary. Other than the risks of oil spills, peregrine falcons, endangered in 48 states, thrive there, and thousands of porcupine caribou roam the refuge, along with black, brown and polar bears and gray wolves [1]. ANWR is the last 5 percent of Alaska's North Slope not open to exploitation, nothing like it exists anywhere else in the world. Lovins highlights that oil reserves elsewhere are more accessible and more reliably transferred than those above the Arctic Circle (129). Protecting or exploiting this refuge is, at its core, a test of whether our nation has a conservationist ethic, as there is no room for error. When pristine wilderness is lost, it's lost forever. According to recent report published by The National Academy of Sciences, the environmental effects continue to grow despite efforts by the oil industry and regulators to minimize them, including new technologies that have reduced off-road travel and made drilling platforms smaller. Drilling for oil causes some impacts that can't be eliminated even though there continues to be tremendous progress.

In addition to the obvious environmental issues at stake, drilling in ANWR also does not constitute sound energy policy. It gives false hopes to citizens suffering from real energy problems today and ignores the tough decisions this nation must make if we are ever to embrace a sustainable energy policy for the future. Rolling blackouts, escalating power bills and the erratic energy market in the West can be directly attributed to California's botched deregulation plan, and can in no way be mended by drilling for more fuel in ANWR or anywhere else. Expanding oil exploration and drilling will not help people in California keep their homes warm nor will it stabilize the volatile energy market in the West. Even if Congress were to approve legislation to allow drilling in ANWR we would not see actual crude oil from the area for many years. Lovins emphasizes that the necessary environmental analysis and infrastructure development needed to produce oil could take up to a decade and cost billions of dollars (129).

The destruction of the Arctic’s pristine environmental refuge for the extraction of crude oil would add nothing in the short term and an infinitesimal amount in the long term to U.S. oil security. According to Lovins, exploitation would decrease the U.S. dependence on imported oil only in a short term by just a few percentage points (129). The report by The National Academy of Sciences says abandoned equipment and buildings are likely to mar the landscape for centuries because state, federal and local overseers haven't decided how the landscape should be restored. According to Dwight R. Lee, improvements in technology could now allow horizontal drilling to obtain oil which is far below the wellhead, and that this technique reduces the amount of land which is directly affected by the drilling operations (125). However, if improvements on present drilling pipes were made instead of making new wells, it would mean that even less land would be directly affected.

As a conclusion, drilling for oil in ANWR is no substitute for a sustainable energy policy. Instead we should choose a course that alleviates immediate problems, conserves energy, supports renewable technologies and wisely maximizes our natural resources. Conservation should also be backed by smart investments in renewable energy. Gains in solar, wind, geothermal, fuel cell, biomass and other renewable technologies will reduce our dependence on fossil fuels and truly insulate the nation from OPEC's market power. It is crucial that everyone recognizes that oil, gas and coal as well as other fossil fuels will be part of our energy mix for the future and that steps need to be taken to increase production in more appropriate areas and improve our energy infrastructure. Rather than opening up new parts of ANWR to oil drilling, a more appropriate and effective short-term solution would be to reinstate the ban on exporting Alaskan oil. Since the concern is the erratic Western energy market, the administration should enforce the reasonable pricing clauses that require electricity producers to charge their customers fair prices. Instead of looking to environmentally sensitive areas to increase our oil supply, we should tap into the wealth of energy options. We should promote rather than fight efforts to conserve and invest in renewable energy, alternative transportation and alternative energy sources. We must encourage the research and development of cheaper, more fuel-efficient cars and provide more federal funding for other modes of transportation. Individuals and the business community should be encouraged to develop alternative energy solutions through tax incentives and grants as well as the active promotion of energy conservation. There are simply too many other viable ways to develop sources of energy to compromise the unique beauty and value of the ANWR.

YOU'RE MY BROWN EYED GIRL

Took a break from things, watched "How to loose a guy in 10 days" on my computer.. cute chick-flick ! Thank God for Fridays.. Alhamdullilah, may there be more of you.. wish I could cancel Mondays and make it Fridays forever [*heck.. what are you babbling girl?*]

Not in the mood to do anything today.. have a splitting headache, my head is aching and my enegy level has been drained.

Yesterday I had lunch with one of my juniors, Din - Solehuddin.. didn't really plan it or anything, just met him at the place I was eating and he asked me to eat with him..we were talking about class and stuff.. he's a petronas scholar so I asked him stuff about pet. scholarship..[my sister Husna just had an interview last week with them..].. he told me about his lively studying experience in UPT.. sometimes I wish I could do it all over again.. I wish I'm where Husna is.. in her time, where she's open to so many options.."choose girl, choose.. medic or engineering? UK or US?" first two questions in my interview with MARA 4 years ago.. The interviewer came to our graduation ceremony the night before where I took the best student award from my own father who was the special guest of honor choosen by the committee member of MARA Junior Science College Beseri for the ceremony.Wish I could turn back time, choose what I really wanted,stayed in Malaysia, studying for that one major I've been dreaming off since I'm in high school...architecture.. Why did I want to fly so much??? I'm tired of being away from home... tired of tasting my own cooking.. tired of just hearing about everyone in my family's birthday celebration for the last 6 years..tired of missing out on every family holiday.. sick of my purple fingers... tired of the feeling that I don't quite fit in.. wanna be home..where its warm and I'm with my people...where I'm in peace!

I have so much on my mind, last 6 weeks before finals is always such a drag.. so much pressure, so much to do, so little time.. with my new schedule of studies, work and night classes, I've been skipping my meals and I'm so tired.. I don't feel like doing anything today, but I have to..

So many deadlines and due dates.. Gonna hate next Wednesday (Process Control midterm 2) but Adam's coming back from Bangkok, so atleast that's something to look forward to... (so I should feel normal then cause this positive cancels the negative).. am I making any sense? never mind I'm just talking to myself...[*nag.. nag.. nag]

They better pay me big bucks later at work for all these 4 years of torture!

Friday, March 28, 2003

Live daily link to a life of a blogger in Iraq

"Man can hardly even recognize the devils of his own creation" - Albert Schweitzer

I got the quote above from an environmental article that I've read recently but I found that it also relates to other non-environmental related issues. Yesterday in class, we saw a movie based on Rachel Carson's famous controvercial book the "Silent Spring", I was amazed at the sight of human beings both adults and children being sprayed literally with DDT in the 60's in order to kill lice which was then known to be the spreader of fatal diseases. You see these men in protected suits coming into University lecture halls spraying as these students sits in the room filled hall smiling and waiting patiently as they were being sprayed. Their smiling faces made it seem like it was a government adverticement or something. Hard to believe! Next we say children being sprayed as they ate their lunch together in a school playground. Years later, with Carson's book being published, the public was held with the knowledge that these insecticide chemicals are not just insect killers but also kills other animals such as fishes and birds, as well as giving human cumulative health risks which could lead to cancer etc.. At the moment I don't think that it is globally banned, I'm gonna write an article on this issue. Maybe I'll publish it next week (once again after my exam).

The weather has made a drastic divergence from yesterdays sunny day. So don't pack those winter coats just yet, there'll be snow tomorrow...

There's just too many conflicts in this world since the beginning of mankind, and man should learn by now that war causes more destruction than solution. I've added another photo to the little compilation. Click on this paragraph to be directed there.

Anyway, it's going to be a busy day for me once again. I've started to take night Theatre class beginning last Tuesday. It's really fun, you won't even realise 3 hours passing so quickly. Like two days ago we went to the Cedar-Riverside theater for the first time and it was our first class but we were divided into groups and we had to act with a given limited script. Our group was the first to perform, and I had to act as a girl who was following her two brothers committing a pick pocket crime in a grocery store. I was the good one persuading them not to steal.. and at the end I kind of saved them by spotting that the store owner was looking at us. Good times... I didn't realize at first but when the groups were performing, I realised that Azwa was also in the class.. and as he was performing he had this grin on his face acknowledging me that he's also in the act.. he was acting as a gay hairdresser and his partner's customer was nort satisfied with her hair do and he was assuring her that it's 'ok'..

At the beginning of the week I was a little confused about the class.. I know it starts this week, and it's from 6-9 pm.. so while I was checking my email at home I checked my enrollment summary to see what room its in.. I made the grand mistake of not checking what day the classes were in. So assuming that the class is on Monday night [cause Monday is the one of the days that I don't have an evening shift at work], I went to the room... I got there and found 12 students.. all of which are 50 years and above. So I sat there and the lecturer introduces the class and she said " welcome to America's romantic film comedies class" and I chuckled skeptically thinking that she's just being funny cause I know that the class I signed up for was Drama and the media. So anyway, she was explaining the class and I just sat there listening.. at one point I got bored and started making a groceries shopping list at the back of my new maroon and gold U of Mn notebook pretending to be taking notes.. then she started to call out names to take attendance, my name is usually last cause my last name starts with a Y, but with the small class I didn't have to wait long to find that I wasn't in the list, but then again there's another 3 students whose name wasn't on the list.. I thought that I just registered late and so I wasn't in her attendance list.. so I sat there still like a good student would, and then the truth sunks in as she passes the syllabus around class and there it was at the top of the paper CSch 0191 "America's romantic film comedies".. then I realised that I'm in the wrong class but I thought that it would be rude to leave cause the instructor wanted to see me during the break to take my personal info. The class was 0 credit and it is so easy, you go to class to discuss the movies which you have watched.. there's no movie review or assignments.. you will not be graded at all and your only homework is to watch at least one of the movies that's in the list once a week... and the only student responsibility is to make sure that your cell phone is turned off during the movies... so there I was, in this small dilemma of should I stay or should I go when suddenly I was saved my the bell.. Adam called me on my cell and I had apparently forgoten to put it on the silent mode. So I picked up my bag along with all of my belongings and dashed out of the class without the slightest hesitation or doubt. No more turning back, I went straight to the computer lab in the basement of Anderson Hall and checked my registration summary once again.. and there it was TTh [Tuesday and Thursday] nights.. I laughed to myself.. silly me! Tuesday was a busy day, I had work from 12-3, process control lab from 3.30-6.30, theatre class from 6-9 and work again from 9-11... so there's a little conflict at 6 o'clock and I was hoping that we could finish our experiment quickly and run to the westbank for my class.. but our group messed up so many times that we repeated the first part 3 times before we had it right.. then the computer wouldn't save our data so we had to repeat again.. and everyone kept complaing of being hungry so we finally got done at 6.15pm.. still early considering we should be leaving at 6.30 but I was already late for the class which I was had arrived day early for. But all was well at the end of the day.. I've met the professor before, recently actually, as I recall, as he came to buy a gym membership from me while I was working... Anyway, I'll be going to class again tonight but before that I have to finish off the first and the second chapter of our Process Design project.. Tschus!

Thursday, March 27, 2003

IT HAS BEGAN.

I know it seems like I have made a temporary disappearance, and I guess I must admit that I was taking a little break from things. Last week, I went to California with some old time buds from Madison. There's really alot to tell and I will create a photo journal to tell you all about it soon [maybe next week when I'm done with my midterm]

As we are all well aware off, war has broke out in Iraq. I have made a little compilation dedicated to this war.. there's not really much I can do other than pray for the Muslims and the end of this war. Just click on this paragraph and you will be directed to it.. I shall add more stuff everyday.. just bits and pieces that I have found interesting.


I was eating dinner at Cafe 8, Fisherman's Wharf with Nini, Mazu and Dya in San Francisco at the time the first attack on Iraq. The waiter at the cafe turned up the volume on the television that was set on CNN News. Inside I was scared, not only for myself but for the future. Despite what the media says deep down I feels that this is undoubtedly a war between religion and that Bush is attacking for personal reasons. The next morning, we were on our way to buy our tickets to get a boat ride to Alcatraz when we got on the wrong bus and was heading to San Francisco downtown instead of Fisherman's Wharf. The bus had to stop before sending all its passangers to their designated stop due to a road block cause there was an anti-war demonstration. So we had a little live action there. Later that night, we were once again stuck, this time in a gas station cause our exit ws blocked due to a peace demonstration walk somewhere on our way back to Los Angeles. We found out the next day from NBC News that the SF demonstration was very big and that throughout the globe, millions have come out to make their opinions heard.. some quiet aggressively, especially at the US Embassy. We saw high school kids demonstrating in USC when we were on our way to lunch the next day, and the same could be said regarding U of MN students on Monday too. There was a grand walkout at noon and later a peace walk along Washington Ave sometime at 3.. there was 12 police parole cars following the demonstration.. but I don't think any of this public outbreak is going to change Bush's mind on the war... sad but true..

Thursday, March 13, 2003

SHOCKED

Today I heard of the sad news of a girl whom I once consider a sisterly muslimah, had taken off her veil which symbolizes who she is.. I am shocked beyond words at how unexpected this is.. I'm very sad, up to the point that I shed a tear that the Devil has once again 'conquered' the mind of another soul just as he had said he would since the beginning of mankind.... I have been here less than 4 years and up til now I have seen 5 girls taken off their hijab.. only one girl put it on and found that my American bestfriend and my Russian ex-roommate converted into Islam...

My dear, if you are reading this.. please reconsider your actions.. I know it is out of my hand but it's still not too late to return back to where you were once, and possibly even improve... I shall pray for you.. I wouldn't be concerned if I don't care.. but I do...

This song I dedicate to the scarf which had once proudly obeyed Allah's command, I pray that it will someday return back to its right duty, and that this phase will soon pass...

Mengapa kau pergi, Mengapa kau kecewakan,
Mengapa kau hancuri, Mengapa kau menghinakan

Mengapa kau sakiti, Mengapa kau melukakan
Mengapa kau memberi, Mengapa kau melupakan

Mengapa kau akhiri, Mengapa kau memulakan
Dengan ketaran jiwa, ku kemukakan pertanyaan...

Tak ingin ku kau pergi, Tak ingin ku dikecewakan
Tak ingin cinta dinodai, Tak ingin dihancurkan

Tak ingin ku disakiti, Tak ingin ku dilukakan,
Tak ingin ku kau beri, Bila kau melupakan

Tak ingin diakhiri, Bila kau memulakan
Dengan perasaan hambar, ku meminta jawapan...

Di kanan ku cinta penuh bermadu, di kiri ku racunku
kalimah sakti yang mana untuk mu
Dapat kau membuat pilihan, agar kita dapat bersama

Kau bisa membahagiakan, menceriakan,
Kau bisa menggembirakan, mempersonakan,
Aku, ingin dicintaimu dan mencintai
Aku ingin bila terjaga kau disampingku selamanya...

Di kanan ku cinta penuh bermadu, di kiri ku racunku
kalimah sakti yang mana untuk mu
Dapat kau membuat pilihan, agar kita dapat bersama

Kau bisa membahagiakan, menceriakan,
Kau bisa menggembirakan, mempersonakan,
Aku, ingin dicintaimu dan mencintai
Aku ingin bila terjaga kau disampingku selamanya

Semoga cinta bersemi
Semoga cintamu kan dekat padaku asmara kan mengundang tanpa mengira waktu,
bertapa di hatimu.. dah hati ku

Wednesday, March 12, 2003

"Finally Zeus decided to contrive a punishment for mankind from which there would be no escape. And so we have women."- Hesoid, Theogony.

It's comments like this that makes me wanna laugh my head off, especially if you take into consideration that the Greeks actually believed that the first God is actually a Goddess (Earth).. who gave virgin-birth to her partner, the starry Heaven (Sky).. and later they bore the the Titan deities (Koios and Kreios, Hyperion and Iapetos, Thea and Rhea, Themis and Memory, Pheobe and Tethys and Kronos) the three Cyclopes deities (Thunderer, Lightner and Whitebolt) and another group of gods (Mountains, Nymphs, Kottos, Briareos, Gyges and Sea).. Then the six pairs of Titan gods and goddesses bore about 300 deities and so they fluorished (known as the many rivers, ponds and lakes on Earth).Then there's the tale of how Kronos hated his father (Sky) for killing his fearsome children,a nd he planned with his mother (Earth) to punish him.. so when Sky covers Earth at night, Kronos came out from his ambush hidings and cuts his fathers genitals and threw it into the sea, which is part of Earth as we know it, and from the waves, a white foam grew from the immortal flesh and a goddess was formed out of it, known as Aphrodite, goddess of love (created from genitals! ).. bla.. bla.. bla... From the standpoint of a modern philologist, some of the explanations are as proposterous as others are self evident.

"And when Perseus cut off her head from her neck, out sprang great Chrysaor and the horse Pegasus"

How do I know so much? Yesterday, I managed to finish off one of my entries for the Greek and Roman Mythology long distance class that I am taking.. It kinda motivates me to try to finish off another entry in a day, so since I don't have any classes today except for a group meeting with Prof. Smyrl to discuss our project, I spent the whole morning reading on articles and a translation of an epic poem. I found it very interesting, and strangely amusing how the Greeks and Romans have described the origins of deities. Even learnt some new S.A.T words.. I'll definitely highlight what's tickled my funny bone and kept me interested in all this mythology 'junk', but not now.. later, after my midterm tomorrow kay?

Silly news: In New York, a restaurant have changed "French" Fries to 'Freedom' Fries to show their dissatisfaction of France's disapproval to war in Iraq.... what next?

FLAKE by Jack Johnson

I know she said it's all right
You can make it up next time
I know she knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying

Maybe she thinks I know something maybe
maybe she thinks its fine
maybe she knows something I don't I'm so
I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
it pretty much always means no
so don't tell me you might just let it go
but often times we're lazy
it seems to stand in my way
cause no one knows that no one likes to be let down

I know she loves the sun rise
no longer sees it with her sleeping eyes
and I know that when she says she's gonna try
well it might not work because of other ties and
I know she usually has some other guys and
I wouldn't wanna break them
I wouldn't wanna break them
maybe she'll help me, to untie this
but until them I'm gonna have to lie to myself

It seems to me that maybe
it pretty much always means no
so don't tell me you might just let it go
but often times we're lazy
it seems to stand in my way
cause no one knows that no one likes to be let down

Tuesday, March 11, 2003



CHEESY SHRIMP SKILLET

Alhamdullilah... I'm so full right now.. I decided to cook lunch today as a reward for myself for completing my last engineeering lab as an undergrad... I cooked a new dish which I found behind a scalloped potato box.. but instead of using sausages as is in the recipe, I substituted it with shrimp cause I've finished off all my sausages for lunch two days ago with Nad and Dya... I actually cooked alot today, so I'm probably going to invite some of the Malays in UV... I also have some Krispy Kreme doughnuts and fresh pineapples which I could use as desserts..

Actually, I've been wanting to do a house warming thing at my apartment here [since the last time I tried having an open house I had to shift it to Nad's place cause Timber's aunt came over to stay with her mum].. my house is so much emptier now that Timber moved,..

This weekend, Angie will be in her Cabin up north for spring break.. Nany, Zaini and Aida will be driving up from Madison and staying over here on Saturday night, but I'll be in California then. So I have to remember to pass her my keys when I see her in Madison.

Good news; Just found out that April will be covering my shifts during the break.. Yeay!


Sunday, March 09, 2003

WEEKEND
Hoping to make today a productive day. I still have 2.5 hours of work, so in that time I wish to complete my ES notes for my midterm studies on Wednesday. Then when I return home I could possibly start studying for my Unit Ops final this monday. I really want to submit something for my Roman & Greek Mythology class too this weekend. Wish Amanda is here so that she would take me to B&N again. I find it hard to get things done when I'm home.

My body is still aching from last night's soccer practice. Yesterday really felt like a 3 hour workout. The girls and I was so knackered by the time we got home. We were going to watch a movie that we took from the front desk of the University Village but none of us even wanted to move to put the video in the VCR after we sat down on the couch. So instead we were watching the TRL award repeats. I woke up this morning to find a fresh 5 inch layer of snow falling outside.. it was still unplowed when I walked to work this morning.. I felt more like skiing when I moved myself through the snow. It doesn't exactly feel so good cause my feet was already blistering..

Feel like buying a guitar... I was practising playing Dya's guitar last night, trying to play "Kiss Me" which I couldn't quite play it very well yet.. I need to move my fingers faster, but my index finger hurts from a paper cut that I got recently. Our neighbour (the one living between me and the girl's house), Sophear, could play really well and she was planning on teaching us something new the last time we saw her. Her dad was doing a live charity show last weekend at the 'U Garden' restaurant. Anyway, I'm too broke right now.. so I'll probably get somebody else to buy me a guitar.. [Abaaah...!!]

Just wanna take this time to congratulate my friend Norazilla Fatimah and her newly wed husband on their wedding this month. Hope your marriage is filled with joy and happiness til the end of time.. sorry, I couldn't make it to the ceremony but I wish you well.

Also wanna congratulate my cousin Nor Afzan who will be the one and only new fresh-girl attending Nagoya University a fortnight from today. There'll be 5 students going there altogether out of 149 from the whole course. Coincidentally this is the same University which her sister graduated from last year, so that's kinda interesting.. I'm very happy for ya!

Friday, March 07, 2003

FAT CHANCE
Have you ever received junk mail that tells you that you've won a lump sum of money? Just to find that the cash is store credit or could only be used in a gambling casino or something.. Well if you get letters such as that in your email, it's more than natural to disregard it and click the 'delete' button. But then again, if you know that you've never entered a lottery, then naturally the chances of you winning the lottery is most likely 'very slim to none'. Anyway, I got a letter about a month ago posted from Spain (Spanish stamps and all) saying that I am one of the 17 international winners to share 3 million dollars.. Knowing me, I trashed it right away. When Adam came to visit he noticed the slip of letter in my trash bin next to my desk.. He read it and thought that it was real and kept insisting that I'd call Spain to claim the money.. the scary part is that this lottery company wants my account #. So I kept putting it off.. [I know I'd never call really..] I told my supervisor and co-worker at work, and they wanted to look at it too.. So today I brought it in and showed Sarah.. she told me to look it up online.. I found that it's a big international scam which has been going on for over 10 years, and people keep falling for it... I found a person who got this letter through his email and he was actually interested.. Here's what happened:
p/s: I got the initial letter more or less exactly as posted here..

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EL GORDO SPANISH SWEEPSTAKE LOTTERY COMPANY
S.L. CALLE AROYO NO. 13 PISO 4G
28030 MADRID. ESPA?A.
EL GORDO TEL: + 34 636. 347. 446 , FAX: +34 652. 460. 537
E-MAIL: el-gordo@madrid.com

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FROM: THE DESK OF THE VICE PRESIDENT.
INTERNATIONAL PROMOTIONS/PRIZE AWARD DEPT.
BATCH: EGS/2551256003/02 , REFERENCE:14/0017/IPD
DATE: 20th OF NOVEMBER 2002

ATTENTION:

Dear Sir,

RE: AWARD FINAL NOTIFICATION.

This is to inform you on the release of the EL- GORDO DE LA PRIMITIVA LOTTERY held on the 25th of OCTOBER 2002. Due to the mix up of numbers and addresses, the results were released on the 15th of NOVEMBER 2002. Your name attached to ticket number 031-1127-841 with serial number 3214-07 drew the lucky numbers of 09 -22-37-39-41-49 which consequently won the lottery in the 3rd category. You have therefore been approved for a lump sum payout of USD $ 615,810.00 ( SIX HUNDRED AND FIFTEEN THOUSAND EIGHT HUNDRED AND TEN UNITED STATES DOLLARS ONLY) in cash credited to file with REF. NO. EGS/2551256003/02. This is from a total cash prize of USD 16,621,340.00 ( SIXTEEN MILLION SIX HUNDRED AND TWENTY ONE THOUSAND, THREE
HUNDRED AND FOURTY US DOLLARS ONLY) Shared among the thirty oneinternational winners in this category. CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!

Your fund is now deposited with a Security Company and insured in your name. Due to mix up of some numbers and names, we ask that you keep this award from public notice until your claim has been processed and money remitted to your account as this is part of our security protocol to avoid double claiming or unwarranted taking advantage of this program by participants as it has happened in the past. participants as it has happened in the past.

All participants were selected through a computer ballot system drawn from 25,000 names from Asia, Australia, New Zealand, Europe, America Africa and North America as part of our International promotions program. We hope your lucky name will draw a bigger cash prize in the subsequent programs. draw a bigger cash prize in the subsequent programs. To begin your lottery claims,
please contact your claims agent, MR OSCAR MARTINEZ Foreign operations manager ATLANTICO GRUPO DE SEGURIDAD S.A on Tel: +34 635116192 and Fax: +3435116193 or by e-mail: atlantico.grupodeseg@lycos.es for the processing and remittance of
your winning prize money to a designation of your choice. designation of your choice. Remember, all prize money must be claimed not later than, 14th of DECEMBER 2002. After this date if not claimed, the fund will be returned to the MINISTERIO DE ECONOMIA Y HACIENDA. And also be informed that 10% of your Lottery Winning belongs to ATLANTICO GRUPO DE SEGURIDAD S.A. because
they entered your name for this draw and they are your claims agent. This 10% will be remitted after you have received your winnings because the money is insured in your name already. because the money is insured in your name already. NOTE: In order to avoid unnecessary delays and complications, please remember to quote your reference and batch numbers in every correspondence with us or your agent. Furthermore, should there be any change of your address, do inform your claims agent as soon as possible. An
original copy of your prize Winning Certificate will be sent to you after you have claimed your winning. Congratulations once again from all members of our staff and thank you for being a part of our International promotions program. We wish you continued good fortunes. promotions program. We wish you continued good fortunes.

Sincerely

JOSE LUIS
VICE PRESIDENT

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Mr. Luis,

I was very excited to hear I've won the lottery! I sure can use the money. Please tell me what I need to do next to claim my money.

I can't wait. Thank you for your honesty in telling me I won instead of keeping the money for yourself. I look forward to hearing from you.

Jay Taylor (not his or her real name)

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EL GORDO LOTTERY COMPANY [el-gordo@madrid.com] wrote:

SEND YOUR TELEPHONE AND FAX NUMBERS TO
atlantico.grupodeseg@lycos.es
C/O MR. OSCAR MARTINEZ.
THEY WILL SEND YOU A PAYMENT PROCESSING FORM WHICH YOU WILL HAVE TO COMPLETE AND FAX BACK. ALTERNATIVELY, THE FORM CAN BE SENT TO YOU BY E-MAIL IF YOU CAN RETRIEVE IT FROM THE COMPUTER.

JOSE LUIS.

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Thank you for the quick reply. Yes, please send the form as an email attachment as the fax machine I have is at work and I don't want anyone to see that I won a bunch of money or they will all try to be my friend.

Thank you.

Jay

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I have not heard back from you regarding my prize winning. Did you spend my money? I sure hope not.

Jay Taylor

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I have attached the requested form. Please send me my money.

Jay Taylor

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ATLANTICO GRUPO DE SEGURIDAD [atlantico.grupodeseg@lycos.es] wrote:

YOUR COMPLETED FORM HAS BEEN RECEIVED. HOW YOU DID NOT INCLUDE A TEL OR FAX NUMBER. YOU ARE REQUIRED TO PAY A NOMINAL PROCESSING FEE OF $650.00 TIS FEE WILL BE MADE PAYABLE TO THE LOTTERY COMPANY FOR AUTHENTICATION AND REGISTRATION. WE CANNOT DEDUCT THE MONEY FROM YOUR WINNING BECAUE IT IS ALREADY INSURED IN YOUR NAME. GET BACK TO US ON HOW TO PAY THIS FEE. THANK YOU.

O. MARTINEZ.

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Thank you for your quick reply. I have a proposition on the payment of the processing fee. If you pay this fee on my behalf,
I will pay you 10% of my prize money. That way, neither of us is at risk. If you do not wish to handle the fee this way, I would like to pay by credit card, that way, if something goes awry, I can have the charge canceled.

I look forward to hearing from you and receiving my money.

Jay

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ATLANTICO GRUPO DE SEGURIDAD [atlantico.grupodeseg@lycos.es] wrote:

DEAR SIR, YOU DO NOT HAVE ANY PROBLEM ABOUT YOUR MONEY AT ALL BECAUSE IT IS WELL SECURED AND INSURED IN YOUR OWN NAME. IF YOU WANT TO PAY THIS FEE BY CREDIT CARD, THEN PAY IT THROUGH WESTERN
UNION MONEY TRANSFER WITH CREDIT CARD. MAKE THIS TRANSFER TO OWN NAME, OSCAR MARTINEZ AND THE CITY YOU ARE SENDING THE MONEY TO IS MADRID, SPAIN. THESE ARE ALL THAT YOU NEED. AND AFTER SEND TO ME THE 10 DIDGIT MONEY TRANSFER CONTROL NUMBER. YOU DO NOT HAVE ANY PROBLEM AT ALL. I ASSURE YOU. AS SOON AS THIS IS DONE, AUTHORISATION WILL BE MADE TO TRANSFER YOUR MONEY INTO YOUR DESIGNATED BANK ACCOUNT AND THE TRANSFER SLIP WILL BE FAXED TO YOU. THANK YOU AND CONGRATULATIONS ONCE AGAIN.

OSCAR MARTINEZ.

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Oscar,

I cannot believe someone would turn down a chance for 10% of 600,000 USD for advancing a measly 600 USD. It would be a good faith effort on your part and a chance to make 60,000 USD. If I worked for a large, international lottery agency like yourself, I would be offering this service to everyone that won and would retire in a very short time.

I also find it interesting that a large, international lottery agency could only accept funds via Western Union. Do you have a web page where I can pay with my credit card on a secure server? I'm afraid if a credit card is used to send money via Western Union, there is no recourse to recover the funds since it is considered a cash advance.

Again, please reconsider my proposal to advance the USD 600 fee for me so you can make your USD 60,000.

Jay

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ATLANTICO GRUPO DE SEGURIDAD [atlantico.grupodeseg@lycos.es] wrote:

DEAR SIR, THIS IS OUR COMPANY POLICY. PAY THE FEE AS YOU HAVE BEEN INSTRUCTED TO DO SO, AND YOUR FUND WILL BE TRANSFERRED. THIS 10% THAT BELONGS TO US WILL BE REMITTED AFTER YOU HAVE RECEIVED YOUR WINNING IN YOUR ACCOUNT BECAUSE THIS MONEY IS INSURED IN YOUR NAME. GET IS CLEAR NOW. OK.
YOU CAN COME AND WORK FOR US AND RETIRE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE IF YOU FEEL SO.

O. MARTINEZ.

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Exactly how does a person get a job in the scam business? Is there a school, or is it just learned by experience?
Do you ever feel guilty at all, or have you conditioned your conscious in such a way that you actually justify what you do?
Have you ever had a real job where you actually do some work for a business and they pay you according to your work load/
responsibilities? Do you make enough scamming people to buy your family what they need?

Do you think people are actually dumb enough to send $600 via Western Union to an individual that is going to give them
$600,000? How can I win a lottery that I didn't even enter? I've read a lot about these 419 scams, but you may be the
stupidest criminal yet. JUST SEND THE MONEY. Yeah, right.

Not in your lifetime, Mugu.

By they way, TYPING IN ALL CAPITAL LETTERS JUST MAKES YOU
LOOK EVEN MORE STUPID THAN YOU ALREADY ARE.

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ATLANTICO GRUPO DE SEGURIDAD [atlantico.grupodeseg@lycos.es] wrote:

FUCK YOUR ASS SIR. GO TO HELL AND BURN TO ASHES. MOTHER FUCKER. LOOK AT THIS ORCHIN CALLING ME A SCAMMER WHEN I AM SURE TAHT I AM BETTER OFF THAN YOU, GAINFULLY EMPLOYED. ONCE AGAIN, GO
TO HELL AND BURN TO ASHES. STUPID ORCHIN.

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Did I mention that typing in all capital letters makes you look even more stupid? Just a plain mugu. Poor fellow. Yeah, you are living in a third world country and I'm in the greatest country in the world, and you're better off than me.....ha ha ha. I bet you have to shit in a bucket and then dump it out your window. $600 is probably three years worth of honest (do you know what that word means) work in your country.

Poor mugu.

Thursday, March 06, 2003

Paper Cut
Due to the low humidity level, I had so many paper cuts today.. I wonder if there's a reason for it..like maybe I don't wear enough lotion and I skin is dried up or something...it's not really painful but it's very uncomfortable and unsightly (sight pollution)..

Just got back from studying with Amanda at HarMar 's Barnes & Noble..I'm all pumped up with caffeine.. I'm so happy with today's progress.. I think I've managed to get quite alot of things done today. Somehow, it also feels like a happy-mood day, like nothing could bring me down today... and it feels really nice..

I woke up this morning and a close friend of mine gave me an early morning call.. I was initially curious as to the morning call but then the person told me that the call was just because I was remembered.. that kinda brightened up my day.. I almost missed my class but I managed to get there. Then I went to class.. meet up with my design group afterwards to work on our presentation which we were suppose to present yesterday, but didn't because Qamar went to Canada to apply to become a Canadian citizen.. so we'll be presenting tomorrow instead.. then I went to another class... by the time I realised I had missed lunch, I found myself at the rec working on my Process Control homework.. Nadia came over cause she had just finished her work and we had a chance to take a bite of the Rec's 10 year anniversary cake.. Amanda came to join us too as Dya left to go home.. She was telling me about her pre-holiday schedule.. about how she has a few midterms and stuff.. so we made plans to go study together.. I went to work from 6-8 and then she came to pick me up from work and went to study at B&N in HarMar until the store closes at 11...Before I used to go to study there all the time with Adam especially when I have midterms or exams.. but I stopped going there for some reason.. now Amanda's getting me back to that routine.. I love that place, I wouldn't mind living there for a week amongst all that book..

Perhaps the reason I'm so happy today is because it's payday once again...I paid all my bills online this morning before class..(wouldn't wanna have to pay extra fees now would we?) but I'm also saving up for my trip to California.. Amanda's going there too this Spring Break..

Time really flies by so quickly, I forgot that it ws Fajarrani's birthday last weekend..it doesn't seem that long ago that we were celebrating her birthday last year at Don Pablo's.. this means that Jin's birthday is coming up soon too... but he'll be in NY at that time (mind you, with his future family in-law..heheh..).. but this fast time phenomenon is not always a good thing.. there's so many deadlines to keep up to...[IDL !!!]

Good news: Nad's scanner arrived today..

Wednesday, March 05, 2003

Was bored at work, so I surfed around for a few hours.. did a quiz which I found in one of the website's (was it Mon's).. here's the result;

click to take it!

You can TRY it too..

Fixed the guestbook..
thanks for those who signed before..you are what keeps the blog alive..[was thinking of quitting the whole blog thingie last night, but decided against it this morning]
....hope to hear from you soon.

"Cold and frosty morning , there's not alot to say about the things caught in my mind..
and as the day was dawning, my plane flew away, with all the things caught in my mind

I don't wanna be there when you're coming down
I don't wanna be there when you hit the ground

so don't go away, say what you say, say that you'll stay, forever and a day, in the time of my life
cause I need more time, yes I need more time, just to make things right"

~Oasis, "Say that you'll stay"

NEGLECTED

Just realized that my guestbook is no longer functional..Thanks Monina and Rafique for bringing that to my attention.. I know I've been neglecting some stuff in my life lately,esp. this blog
but.. classes are busy with the usuals (midterms, assignments and hws) but still everyone is excited about the rebirth of Spring Break,.. then there's Adam's short visit..

Adam has gone back to his business in Bangkok yesterday. So before he left we went to see a movie starring his favourite star, JetLi "Cradle 2 the Grave".. I thought there were just too many gruesome fighting, but then again it was an action movie.. (What am I complaining for?)

Usually at this time of the day , at this time of the week I'd be in the Chemical Engineering Unit Operation lab working on an experiment.. but the lab is over now and I will be having my first final of the semester next Monday.. so no lab today, which is why I have an extra minute to organize my life.. mind you, I still have a million other things to do too..

With Spring break coming soon, I'm starting to get excited at the prospect of going on a holiday once again.. Nad and WeiLin are off to Atlanta (Georgia), Dya has her own secret project (I've sworn to secrecy) and the girls from "Kelab Anak-anak Kelahiran Kedah" a.k.a me, Nini and Eena (which has 3 ATU2 members so far consisting of girls born in Kedah, living in the Klang Valley) along with my ever so nice-'superhero pal', Pablo, are going to LA. We're planning our trip to San Francisco, SF, too.. at this point I need to check if I have any classes for next Friday, cause if I don't I'm planning to leave that Friday just like Nad n Wei Lin, and hang out in Madison (again!) for a day or so.. at least I can visit Monina and the geng.. as students we're on a budget, so were planning to stay at a hostel in SF and staying at the USC girls' place in LA. Eena has called Edzly but I need to call tonight to confirm some stuff with the gilrs there.
Can't wait, getting excited..time's ticking.. tick.. tick... tick...

Good News: my sister, Husna, got her SPM results, Alhamdulillah, she did very well... She even got an A1 for Biology, that's broken my records! But then again, the only reason I did Biology was because my high-school bestfriend, Christine Sowden, from West Leeds High School did pure science in her GCSE O-level..and I wanted to do pure science too.. when I know very well that my teenage-time ambition was to be an accountant at that time (influenced by my cousin who went to Oxford for accountancy at the time)
God, I'm so easily influenced!
Another good news is that Abang (my big bro, who else?) got a job.. he had a few offers actually from a Japanese company, some local companies and even Petronas.. at first he decided to take the Japanese comp. but he talked to some people and they kinda advised him to go for a stable company which is not laying down workers.. so he's gonna work with Petronas... I'm so happy for him actually.

Anyway, I'm gonna try and fix that guestbook (or replace it).. so I have to go for now.. not that I'm trying to neglect you.. honest!